It Keeps Happening.

ladycaitlin:

thortlekins:

I’ve recently gotten a small tip-off about a few certain individuals that I’d rather not name right now.

However though, it’s gotten me thinking and now maybe I’ve been pushing this to near breaking point. Maybe I’ve taken advantage of this new and still somewhat unfamiliar status when it comes to relationships… But we’ve known each other for so long and perhaps it may even worsen what we’ve already established.

I cannot say that I would like it to break off but at the same time thoughts are always cluttering my mind. ‘Should you just keep to yourself like others bother you to be’ or ‘Perhaps you just aren’t good enough and there really is no reason to keep this act up’. 

Thorton what are you talking about now? What kind of tip-off? I do not even know what you are talking about..

Honestly you do know or at least you should have known that I have liked you since I met you, and yes I was a very bratty 14 year old when we met all those years ago but I have grown and I am not the same as I once was.. I thought running away to Unova would solve my problems and maybe I would meet someone so I could at least try to forget you but I could not.

I thought maybe you might have changed at least a little, so yes I do still find it quite odd you are still the same as you once were. I do not know how you could say that it would worsen our relationship, we were practically children when we met for goodness sakes!

Honestly, it does not bother me if you do not give me the attention I crave, or if you do not love me like I have always loved you, but do not put yourself down like this, Thorton. You are all I need to be happy.

Well… I’ve heard news of the goings on between you and Grimsley. Honestly, I’ve tried to put it out of mind but I couldn’t help myself. I know you aren’t the type of person to run off behind someone’s back so I was able to find some comfort in that thought. 

I apologize if what you expected me to do wasn’t to what you’ve set your mind to believe and mentally, I kick myself for every idiotic mistake I’ve made since we’ve gotten together all those months ago.

I am especially sorry for not showing you said attention, Caitlin. If I could, I would blame the whole lack of it on myself.

I’ve recently gotten a small tip-off about a few certain individuals that I’d rather not name right now.

However though, it’s gotten me thinking and now maybe I’ve been pushing this to near breaking point. Maybe I’ve taken advantage of this new and still somewhat unfamiliar status when it comes to relationships… But we’ve known each other for so long and perhaps it may even worsen what we’ve already established.

I cannot say that I would like it to break off but at the same time thoughts are always cluttering my mind. ‘Should you just keep to yourself like others bother you to be’ or ‘Perhaps you just aren’t good enough and there really is no reason to keep this act up’.